head games.

"I'm waiting, waiting for nothing. Your leaving, leaving me hanging. When did your heart go missing?" 

Most of us walk around with big smiles, throwing jokes around. But we arent really that happy. I think we all get so overwhelmed with everything we dont have, we forget about everything we do have. Its so selfish and immature of us. How can we let one thing ruin everything that we have been given? I let myself get so wrapped up I forget about the amazing friends I have, the loving supportive family I have, all of the oppurtunities I have had, everything. I throw it all away. Well I refuse to do that anymore. Im not going to let those things I love and worked very hard for slip away. Im not going to be a zombie anymore. Im not going to sit at home and dream. Im going to be the person I used to be. Actually I want to be someone better..and I will be. 

You dont even know it, but you opened my eyes. You made me eat my words. Thank you. I hope I can do the same thing for you. 

Today was productive and uneventful. Ran some errands then my mom took me out for dinner and a movie. I sat in a small movie theater with 10 old ladies and saw Nights of Rodanthe. It was probably the gayest movie Ive seen in awhile. My mom is EXACTLY like me so the whole time she made comments like "when is richard gere gonna get naked?" or "why isnt there anymore black people in this scene? it would be better". So we made the movie enjoyable by adding our comments and being shushed at by old ladies. It was funny. I always think old guys are hot so I must admit Richard gere was not bad looking. haha. I would spend a night in rodanthe with him. Anyway dont see it and if you are wait to rent it so you dont waste your money. 

not bad. 

Last night was epic. I always think its funny when people bond while hiding in a dark room from the cops. I also think its funny when 19 and 20 year olds are having themed parties. I was plesently suprised to see only a small handful of people actually dressed up. Good times and good people. 

I need a large glass of black iced coffee right now. The headaches dont go away until I have coffee. boo another addiction under my belt. 

I cant wait to see eagle eye, burn after reading, twilight, nick & norahs infinite playlist, and harry potter. I wonder what other good movies are coming. oh and today I bought the cutest jacket! I LOVE jackets. I need more scarves now.

Until next time, its been real. 

M.