it puts it all into perspective

You try to compete with me. You try to make me feel stupid. You try to sabotage me. You cross me thinking I will shrug it off and crack a joke. You do all of this to feel better about yourself, all of you. Your insecurties me make me feel sorry for you. Im not a victim, Im stronger than you, Im braver than you, Im smarter than you, I will be better than you. Live it up. 

Reading is my number one escape. When I feel like Im going to lose it and kill someone I go somewhere alone and read. My imagination is insane. Im thankful that I have it. A lot of people dont understand the whole reading thing. The point is I have a sick love affair with it. I pity a person who doesnt appreciate it. 

I decided that I would jump on the bandwagon and read Twilight. I was skeptical about it at first. I LOVE vampires, I always have. I wish I was a vampire. My best friend looks like a vampire (ps susie im going to try and convince you to get matching vampire bites on our necks..how sick would that be???) anyway..I heard about twilight..a vampire love story? Vampires are badass and ruthless, there is not time for love. But I gave it a chance after everyone started lossing their shit over it. I was really tried after work last night and decided to lay down and read..I opened it around 1030p and FINALLY closed it at 4am. I actually had to force myself to stop reading at 400pages. When I read I get so emotionally attached to the characters and the story. So I was all jumping around and got all giddy. Im hooked. Straight up. Tryana and I vowed to pace ourselves. I dont know if I can. I wish I had a sexy vampire to love! 

Well I didnt buy the 2nd book after work so now I will just have to watch shitty reality tv. 

M.

I need a night out.