maybe your gonna be the one that saves me.

After everything Ive been thru you'd think I'd be able to handle anything. You think I'd be able to have nothing hurt me, nothing affect me. Well I am shocked and hurt. Dont you understand I know you are all shitty. But I give you all chances time and time again. I allow you back in my life, I willingly trust you. How stupid am I? When will I stop? Now again I sit here and realize that most of you are selfish, ignorant, immature, egotistical, and just plan stupid. I must be the most trusting idiot out there. I need you to know I have lost all respect I have for you. That I will try my best to never let you back again. It was good while it lasted, I'm glad its over. 

I cannot sleep, ever. Im convinced I'm dying. 

black bags under my eyes, hunger pains, heart pains, ears ringing. 

I really need someone to save me. I want you to save me.

M.