hollow chest.

the place where they forgot to put my heart

is where you belong.

i see that.

I finger that hollow spot on my chest.

you try to fill it.

i saw that.

the mistake they made is not your fault

i promise if it was able to be filled

you would fill it. 

i see it, you see it, they see it.

i dont feel it, you feel it, they feel it.

that my dear is the problem.

that hollow heart doesnt feel

scream into that hollow part of my chest 

dive head first into that hollow part of my chest

ruthlessly try to fill that hollow part of my chest

pound on that hollow part of my chest

when you leave i will look fondly on your departure

you tried. you tried much harder than anyone else

you tried harder than i would have ever tried

but you see my heart was never mine to give away

i cant give away something i never had. 

M.

this is dedicated to my other hollow chest. we didnt make ourselves this way, this is how it was from the beginning. you have to understand we arent pushing you away. we are desperatly trying to distract you, keep you entertained, keep you trying, keep you here. my dear hollow chest you obviously know who you are, we will forever push them away but one day they wont leave they will stay. do two hollow chests make a whole? if so we are set. i love you. thats one thing my hollow chest knows.