i would understand.

my head is pounding. its actually pulsating. it feels like a caged animal has been set loss inside of it. i guess thats what happens when you dont sleep, drink 12 cups of coffee, and forget to eat because you've spent the day smoking a pack of cigarettes and bitting your nails to they bleed. its strange looking in the mirror and see your skin melt on your face hiding in the dips of your bones , to see the bags deepen and darken under your eyes, to feel your heartbeat all over your body. i wish i could sleep for a very long time. but im awoken from dreams that i cannot remember and they wont allow me to fall back to where i left off.