oh I get it, you thought you knew who i really was

I'm always tired, always. no matter how much sleep I get. strange. anyway aja and i are sitting here watching runs house. its 1pm and we just woke up and kelli is still asleep. on sunday I hung out at the house by myself. I listened to a bunch of girly bands and finally hung up all of my pictures. The plan was to go out and get drinks somewhere on 2nd. Im totally ready to go, dancing around my bedroom (literally) and waiting for tryana. I get an im "houston we have a problem"...something always goes wrong. well tryanas tire went flat a few minutes away from my house. I went over there to save her...but I am no use at all when it comes to that stuff. So instead her and I danced and sang outside in the dark. finally triple a came. and we went back to my place. it was late and we were tired so we watched big brother and went to sleep. yesterday we all worked and kelli had school. we all met up at home around 11. we had these big plans (Well i did) to get dressed up and go out to la or long beach. but we were all so tired from work we ended up going to harbor house and playing the IF game till two.

I wish I was born in the 40's or 50's. Everything was so glamorous. Everyone was classy and the men were so handsome. 

Today we have sooo much to do and half the day is already wasted. I love sleeping but I hate how the day is wasted. Hopefully tonight we will go out and do something. I have hardcore cabin fever. 

I miss susie a lot. I notice when I talk about certain things people dont realy care and make fun of me. But if she was here she would know exactly what I was talking about and have something to add to my story. 

At this age I'm finally realizing who I am. When you are younger or even in high school you are worried about what people think of you. You are scared to express how you really feel about things. Ive realized that I am a total nerd. Yes I enjoy getting all dressed and going dancing and living the life. But I also love watching anything that has to do with aliens or history. I love reading harry potter and vampire books. I dont know I guess what im trying to say is I love all sorts of things that not everyone accepts and Im happy to be me. 

M. 

susie we wish you were here for a cupcake!